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Raw and Unfiltered
Growing up emotionless
Making mistakes
Losing love ones
Becoming numb
Going on auto
Lost on what to do
Impending depression
No help
Emotions stripped raw
Experiencing a flood of emotions
Driven to write
Thoughts and feelings
To drive away the suicidal thoughts
Having the words on paper
Getting a clear head
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LiS: The World We Saved, The Time We Lost Ch. 3
Chapter 3 – The Dream
Kate was still quite upset about what happened between her and Max even though she knew the brunette didn’t mean it. The past two weeks were all around awful, and she would talk to Max tomorrow.
Sleep quickly invading her mind. Just as her eyes were about to close, she saw a figure standing over her. The figure had a beanie, blue dyed hair, and was wearing a tank top with a snake eating itself. The figure sat down on Kate’s bed making Kate bolt up; Unsure what to make of it, she asked, “who are you? Why are you in my room?”
The blue haired figure removed her beanie, giving Kate a good look of the figure’s face, Kate couldn’t put her finger on why this person looked so familiar, the figure was a girl, she seemed to be crying, and her mouth was moving, but no sound came out.
Kate waved her hand in front of the girl’s eyes to get her attention, then said, “I can see you are saying something but I can’t hear
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LiS: The World We Saved, The Time We Lost Ch. 2
Max lets out a “wowzers” as she finishes reading her diary and gets up from the bench. She has only been a few hours from the other timeline, the one where Chloe was alive and the storm was coming. She had to make a choice that was larger than anyone should have to make. She fast forwarded to the point she left in the other timeline.
Which the universe seemed to want to be extra cruel with bringing her back at the same time of her best friend’s funeral and having a blue butterfly appear and land on the casket. For reasons unknown, Max couldn’t help but smile. She tried to hide the smile as best she could. As everyone was leaving the cemetery, she spotted Victoria, Kate, Warren, Joyce, and David. At the time she couldn’t understand why Victoria was there, Max was basing that off the other Victoria. Max had decided to go to the lighthouse.
Wowsers! Victoria actually being nice for once, I’m now half expecting the world to really end. Maybe I should hea
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Zombie Girls
Valentine’s Day was coming up quickly; no one had asked Max or Chloe to do anything, which wasn’t a real problem for them, laying on Chloe’s couch watching movies together like the old days sounded better anyway. A “bzzt bzzt” from Max’s phone; to which Max picks it up and reads the text.
Kate: Hey Max, what are you doing?
Max: Hey Kate, I’m hanging out with Chloe, we’re at her house watching movies. What are you up to?
Kate: oh…. Um I’m not interrupting anything am i?
Even through text Max knew Kate was probably a bright red, and she was laughing at that thought, Chloe looking over at Max, “What’s so funny?” Chloe asks, Max replies, “I’m texting Kate, she was asking what I was doing, I said that I was here with you watching movies, I think she thinks that something else is going on, I can practically see her face bright red,” Chloe laughing at this too, knowing Kate, Chloe suddenly get up a
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LiS : The World We Saved, The Time We Lost Ch 1
Chapter 1 – Max’s diary
Promise me Super Max
Never forget me
Promise
Max sits on the bench at the lighthouse. She starts to read her diary. She needed to know what Auto Max has been up to the past week. Since the week she remembers never happened.
Oct 07
Nathan Prescott shot a girl today. I was only a couple of feet away. I don’t remember the actual shooting. Chalk it up to trauma. Principal Wells was the first one to enter the bathroom, followed by Samuel and Officer Madsen. Madsen quickly pinned Nathan to the floor while Wells was on the phone with 911. Samuel backed out of the bathroom. He seemed to be slightly unsure what he could do. After Madsen handcuffed Nathan, he looked over at the girl that was on the ground lifeless. Madsen recognized who it was, he yelled “Chloe!” At the point I actually really looked at the girl. I screamed at that point, realized that it was my best friend from 5 years ago. Madsen being startled by the scream and looked in m
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Sealed Away
They took me away from a familiar place
Threw me in a three by three foot room
The door shuts, sealed tight
No light comes to find me
Uncountable hours come and go
I fear my time is near
I plead with them to let me go
They just beat on the walls
One of them comes in with a trolley
The things on the trolley shine
He restrains me to the wall
He picks up a needle and nylon thread
I scream, no one cares
He begins to sew my mouth shut
As soon as it starts, its over
More hours go by
He returns with the same trolley
I try to wiggle, but it doesn't help
He pulls my eyelid out
The needle pokes through with ease
He completes both eyelids within the hour
I hear him leave
More time goes by
My lips grow together
My eyelids become sealed
He hasn't returned for a long time
Maybe he has forgotten me
It appears to be winter
I'm losing feeling in my legs
I don't have much time left
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Hidden Love
This feels like the stars are colliding
I never felt something this powerful
Am I dying, being reborn
No
No, i can't be dying, this is something different
I don't think I'll last
Something is eating my nerves and feelings
Insane as much as one can be
Dull as a rock
Only you saying yes, when i ask that painful question
Take me
Make me one of yours
Train me to be yours
Without you my life dwindles
When i'm aroung you, Heaven, Earth, and Hell just dissolve into sand
Time being a figment of the mind when your around
Is this love or hatred I have for you
No... this isn't hatred, so i have love for you
I hope you see that now
It may be too late to save me
I just want you to know "I love you"
I kept it hidden til now
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Love, Hatred, Pain, and Hurt
Life is not the meaning to love
Hatred is the cause of calling your girlfriend a bitch
Hatred can be surpressed
Love can be surpressed
But pain is the sign of you surpressing love or hatred
Pain is also the after effect of hatred.
Love can't help
The only way to fix pain is to hide away
To be lost and then found is to having no one to love, and then to have the most amazing person
The Lover is a person who you think would never lie to, cheat on, and hurt you in any way
To be hurt is to have pain
To be in pain is to have hatred
Life is just another reason to fall in love
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Hello all,
i am writing this at the start of 2017
This is going to be a bit about me
There are a few things i want to write about, forgive me if they are short

I lost a cousin in July, he passed away from drugs.
Me and him had plans on going to a Comic Con. I want to go in his honor. 
We were on rocky grounds, he would make plans with me, and ditch the plans. 
I would confront him about it and go without talking for a while.
i also get a bit paranoid, fear is a powerful thing.
I struggle with who I am. I know of a few things i like/love to do, but i often think about what makes "me" me.
I also 
I wonder if i was meant to be a girl. I used to wear a dress when i was young kid. I would only wear it at night after i knew my parents were asleep. I forgot where i got it and its long gone. I can't confide in my family, they are against such things.
I would go to a therapist if i had a ride. I don't drive, absolutely no interest in driving.

I applied for a job at my local UPS (United Parcel Service) for the holiday season, which that turned into a joke.

I read AR/AP/TF/TG stories and comics, and fantasize about being about to getting a start-over. 

Last thing,
I have trouble with relantionships, most of mine don't last more than 2 weeks, and my last relantionship was over 3 years ago. 

Anyone wanting to talk, please don't be afraid. I'm always looking for more friends.
Hello all,
i am writing this at the start of 2017
This is going to be a bit about me
There are a few things i want to write about, forgive me if they are short

I lost a cousin in July, he passed away from drugs.
Me and him had plans on going to a Comic Con. I want to go in his honor. 
We were on rocky grounds, he would make plans with me, and ditch the plans. 
I would confront him about it and go without talking for a while.
i also get a bit paranoid, fear is a powerful thing.
I struggle with who I am. I know of a few things i like/love to do, but i often think about what makes "me" me.
I also 
I wonder if i was meant to be a girl. I used to wear a dress when i was young kid. I would only wear it at night after i knew my parents were asleep. I forgot where i got it and its long gone. I can't confide in my family, they are against such things.
I would go to a therapist if i had a ride. I don't drive, absolutely no interest in driving.

I applied for a job at my local UPS (United Parcel Service) for the holiday season, which that turned into a joke.

I read AR/AP/TF/TG stories and comics, and fantasize about being about to getting a start-over. 

Last thing,
I have trouble with relantionships, most of mine don't last more than 2 weeks, and my last relantionship was over 3 years ago. 

Anyone wanting to talk, please don't be afraid. I'm always looking for more friends.

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:) hi big bro its me ninja hehe im back
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